The Answer is "No"

I am often asked if I am afraid.  The answer is “no.”

If you knew me 16 years ago, you would be surprised by that answer…because then, my life pretty much revolved around trying to control all that I feared….

I am not that person anymore. 

Sixteen years ago, an acquaintance, someone I barely knew, took a leap of faith and called me…for one purpose…to ask me “have you ever asked Jesus for forgiveness?  Have you ever asked Him for a relationship?” 

Boy was I insulted!  I explained that I knew Jesus was God’s son.  I had always known that!  I had gone to a church all my life!

She continued to nicely badger me… “but have you asked Christ for forgiveness?” 

I growled, “Forgiveness from WHAT?” By then I was pretty exasperated, and I went on to explain, that I had always tried to be good…to do good!

She persisted, “but have you asked HIM for a relationship and forgiveness?”

I thought she was pretty rude, but I decided to try again, “I don’t need to…I’ve always known about him; I’ve gone to church since I was little”

That was that…I was huffy, told her good-bye…and never spoke with her again.

Okay…I thought; “what was it about me that made her, think I was no good?”  (I had totally missed the point.)

But you know what…………..

Her call rolled around and around and around in my mind for two years!  I couldn’t forget it…and one day, I decided to try to figure out what she meant. 

So….where did I begin? The library of course!   I said a prayer hoping to find a book that would explain this (going to church for 33 years, sadly, it hadn’t occurred to me that the Bible held all the answers).  I came across a book entitled “Who is Jesus” by Max Anders….it was the beginning of the many many many books I continued to read.  I started to learn, I started to read the Bible, I studied and studied, I listened to Moody radio, and I prayed that I could figure this out. 

But still, I did not seek forgiveness or ask for a relationship.   Until….one day…… I did. 

And….EVERYTHING changed….and is changing.  I know HIM, I am forgiven…I am saved.  HE died for me…HE died for you.